Friday, November 30, 2007

fucking mad

am fucking mad!

am sick of u!
am tired of being good n loyal.
tired to be the one who jez try to forgive n forget.
tired to be the one who try to make things right.
tired to be the one who pretend everything will be ok

i make u breakfast
i wake u up in the morning
i make luv wif u
i give u a son
i give u my trust
i give u my loyalty
n what i hate most
i luv u Goddem much

but i sick of it
dem tired of everything

i know i shouldn't tell everybody bout what inside, between u n me..
but how i can pretend nothing happen
coz my heart is in fucking hurt now

at first i start to cry over n over
as like i do whenever u hurt me
but from now on
i won't..
i won't cry anymore
i won't cry over such a lame person
u can be that pathetic for ur whole life
but i won't be the same person as u r

for the sake of our child
i'll stuck wif u as long as i cud
coz deep inside, there's still left the luv we have shared b4
after what we have been tru
i dun wanna give up everything jez like that
i still wanna try to work things out
speshly work on my life

u can do what u wanna do
coz am already tired to be hurt
coz broken heart suck up ur desire
desire to move on

i want to move on
move on wif my life
there're lotsa of opportunity lying ahead me
if u wanna share wif me
go on.. wif open arms..
if u dun give a dem.. i dun give a fuck honestly

am a strong woman
i've been tru lotsa obstacles
but am still survive
so, whatever happen to me in my future
i'll survive.. coz am know.. am a survivor

God bless me..


Thursday, November 29, 2007


the insecurity really kills me inside out..
am really torn apart jez now..
but thanx to wan rose..
i feel alot better..
u'r rite..
thinking bout the past, makes u doom in..
learn from the mistakes..
n work it out gal..

sing it to me galz..

"go zetty..go zetty..go zetty..go zetty"


i luv u babes!!!


Tuesday, November 27, 2007

bored again..

bored like hell..
tgh tunggu papa nak balik nie..

am always get jealous at other people..
people who have all the smiling pics..
people who have a hepi wonderful life..
people who success..
people who gorgeous..

jelesnyer aku memandang manusie2 itu..
sum people tell me that i've got what other people dun have..
but am also ain't got what other people have..

hopefully, switching my job, am also can switching on the new self of me <---(apakah betul bahasa inggeris yang ku guna pakai ini)
meet mnew people..
making more friends..
maybe become more successful..

hope so..


lately, aku perasan..
aku nyer entry sumer cam berbaur INSECURITY..
maybe ar kot tgh feeling insecure..
bout what?
tak taula..

whatever it is..
am enjoying this song so much lately..

.: b.|.t.C.h :.

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing


Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me


I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Friday, November 23, 2007

lil bored..

listen to marie digby singing really makes my mind floating around.. dreaming..

this week office kinda boring..
coz i keep doing the same thing all over again, there's sum problems wif my design file n am still trying to sort out till this day..
except, yeterday, am really have fun at the office..
ayip was here, we watch all the funny stupid youtubes.. watch Pirates of the caribbean at the world's end for the 3rd time.. n trying to sort that farking stupid illustrator.. erghh..
ok, ayip is like a lil brother to me, he's my boss' son ok..
n we r kinda have the same interests alot..
from musics, muvis to gadgets..
even when i introduce him to marie digby, he's then totally crazy over her..
but, becoz he's the boss junior.. he's rarely showing up at the office..

coz my mind is already dry out..
i think wanna sooth it wif more of marie digby.. yeeeha..

Thursday, November 22, 2007

marie digby

i jez found this phenomenon youtube babe..
marie digby..


she's such a babe..
n her voice.. arghh.. very mencairkan jiwe dan raga..
she's doing lotsa cover song including james morrison: you give me sumthing,
britney: give me, linkin park: what i've done.. n yadaaaa..yadaa..yadaaa..

she's gorgeous.. gorgeous.. n gorgeous..
really in luv wif her voice n her look..


Wednesday, November 21, 2007

still looking for myself

got lotsa ideas to crap about..
tapi tak tau nak pick yg mane satu..

wat the hell...


everymorning, on my way to work..
am always stumble wif chinese grandpa or grandma yang tgh pimpin tangan cucu or tolak stroller baby jejalan pepagi.. so sweet..
n it makes wonder, ade ke the melayu ppl like us, nenek2 or atuk2 yg kuar pepagi bawa cucu jejalan..
tak penah plak aku terserempak..

slalu chinese ar..
aku sdiri tak penah kuar pepagi bawa anak jejalan..
breath the morning breeze..
best nyer..
unless bangun kul 7 nak gi jogging..
tu pun, setahun brape kali je buat cam tuh..

still wondering..
why this chinese always conscious bout their health..
kalo pegi jogging dekat park, pepetang or early morning..
those yg tgh exercises will be 80% Chinese..

like me.. i luv to exercise.. speshly jog..
but am not too conscious bout what am eating..
am really luv junk food.. but, oklaa, i jez eat 'em rarely..
but sweets.. gosh! i luv sweets n choc so much..
takut gak, later on bile dah tue dapat diabetes..
but i can't help myself eating all those junks..

i really wanna eat healthily..but i can't..
coz i dun wanna stop myself to eat everything i wanna eat..
rugi tau..
i wanna do yoga..
i wanna jog every morning..
i wanna rock climbing..
i wanna go to gym..
i wanna.. i wanna.. i wanna...
buat jer malas..

one day..
i'll do all those things..
that's a promise for myself..
i'll do it..
sooner or later..

yeaaah babe, can u feel me..!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line

Old problems are not back again, no matter what you might think. You can relax.

Old problems can be tricky. On the one hand, you should learn how to forget the past and move on. But on the other hand, if you don't learn your lessons from what has happened already, you are doomed to repeat some unpleasant patterns. The decision about how to tackle past mistakes will be made for you today, when a new opportunity comes along. There will be a time crunch, so you won't have a lot of time to mull it over. Jump ahead and don't look back.


do u have anything that u regret b4?
buat pe nak piki2 bende yg dah lepas..
when tomorrow come..
today will be gone ferever..
betul tak?

lately, i've been thinking alot bout my self.
my self-esteem.. my self-image.. anything that start wif 'self' laa..

do u like the way u r?

do i?

tak taulaa..

do i like the way i am now?

don't know..

i've been changed alot for past few years..
maybe am become better person..
not so much, at least better..
i learn to appreciate people more.. speshly people around me..
i learn how to be patient..
i know how to be more greatful..
i learn how to be a good mother..
n alot more..

am trying to live life to the fullest..
i dun know how to live life to the fullest..
i have my-self doubt..
doubt about things i wanna do..
seems like the confident in me, is starting to fade away..
i don't know why..

i wish i'm more confident..
i wish i will work harder..
i wish i can do everything i wanna do..
i wish i can change into a better, nicer person..
i wish i can be more grateful..
i wish all my dreams come true..
i wish i can really live life to the fullest..

well.. there're lotsa things to wish for..
buat wishes memang ar senang..
wish without act.. useless jugak laa kan..
so skarang.. am thinking..
how to act..
to act in good nice way..

i think everybody know..
the least thing we can do..
is pray..
keep praying to God..
coz praying honestly can open up your heart..
so u can see, what kind of path u wanna use to be what u wanna be..
am i right...?

Friday, November 16, 2007

vitamin B

since my supplement of vitamin B out of stock..
am getting sleepy sepanjang mase
hari2 datang kejer.. mengantuk je keje..
nak buat keje pun tak leh nak focus..
mengantuk ar..

ade this one article sez..
vitamin B6 is good for blood circulation..
it’s kinda an agent to circulate more O2 all over the bod..
no wonder, when u eat more vitamin B. it will boost ur energy..
so babe, if u wanna be energetic all day long..
please take vitamin B.. B complex will b better..

anyone got vitamin B?

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

new obsession

last nite, after awhile tak layan AXN..
so bile ter'on' AXN.. tertengoklaa SUPERNATURAL..
n when watch that two dudes..
arrrghhh! hatiku telah menjadi cair serta merta..
dan mereka berdue telah officially menjadi 'OBSESSION' diriku..
tho, SUPERNATURAL jalan citer die takde ar best sgt, tapi oklaa..
tapi bile menatap wajah due jejake kacak itu..
tidak kisahlaa kamu berlakon tidak sehebat mane sekali pun..
dengan menatap wajahmu yang kacak itu sudah cukup mencairkan hatiku..
bengong laa aku ni..


alaaa aku bukan obses sangat pun..
saje jek nak menggatal..
tapi memang that 2 dudes amatlaa kacak..

walau ape pun..
di hatiku..
hanya satu yang paling kacak..
siape lagi kalau bukan OMAR FAROUK B. MOHAMAD.. =D
Oh suamiku yang kacak bergaye..
aku cinte pade mu..

here a sweet lil dessert untuk tatapan mate para gadis dan ibu2 yang menghargai keindahan..

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007


am feeling vewy2 sleepy..


nak kate tido lambat, takde ar lambat..
ari2, before 12 dah ZZZZZZZZZZZ..
nak kate bangun pagi..
kul 7 baru bangun..
tapi still ngantuk..
nape ar..
tapi aku penah terbace this article..
basically, if our body contain more acids..
we'll be feeling sleepy..
weak.. n slalu kencing..
adakah badan ku juga mempunyai lebihan asid yg melampau?
mungkingkah.. ye kot..
maybe i shud get rid all of those toxics in my bod..
i wish i cud have time to excersice.. nanti body leh jadi fit..
baru best sket..
perut pun kempis..
bleh pakai baju cantik2..

ntah laa.. ape aku mengarut ni..
mengantuk ni..

aku dah start buat sit up, dah 1 week..
muscles perut aku dah sakit gile..
demi nak cantik..
aku sanggup menahan sakit..

dah tak larat dah nak mengarut..
tak tahan ar..

Friday, November 09, 2007

lotsa things in my mind..

the major mess is about changing my job..
when i start to luv everything bout my job now..
suddenly i've got a better offer..
better mean, they pay better.. alot better..
the problem is, the job am gonna work on with
is totally different from what am doing now..
rase sayang sgt nak tinggalkan keje skarang..
tak tau laa..

last nite, already have a deep thought (sambil2 lipat baju yg bergunung..)
finally, i'v decided to switch my job..
they'r really paying me better..
sebenarnye.. memanglaa better.. tapi takde laa banyak sgt pun..
coz gaji skarang pun sciput je, yg aku dapat offer tuh.. lebih sket..
becoz am really need to improve my financial level..
so i really have to accept that job..
tho i ain't like it (for now laa)..
mane tau later2 aku pun jatuh cinte ngan keje tuh nanti..
who knows..

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

once upon a time

am go tru my ol album @ flickr..
i found lotsa ol pics.. years back..
mase zaman2 jahiliah ku..

n still..
i cant believe that am look this gorgeous before..

cun kan..
memang cun pun..
but now..
totally different..
more curvier.. dengan kate lain..
lebih gemuk.. lebihan lemak merate..
i luv myself b4..
skinny n looking fit..
skarang looking bloated..
am still look gorgeous what..

n ade a few pics yg menjadikan diriku rindu pada saat-saat itu..


n i miss ol fren aisha..
we r so closed.. have lotsa chemistry togather..
kalo die laki mesti dah jadi bf aku..
tapi till now, aku dah lost contact..
dunno wer i cud reach her..
if sumbody know wer she's being now
plss tell me..

those r pics of us watching rock the world 4.. 2004

that guy, mr ley.. also ilang ntah ke mane hala..
also a good fren of mine.. harap2 die tgh berbahgie skarang.. hope so..

n also missing lotsa-lotsa my ol fellas..
back in ukm..back in matrix.. back in secondary.. also back in primary..
miss ya'll so much..
i feel like crying, coz am badly miss those guys..
really wanna meet em, n have a long chat..
i wish i cud see em..

ol fren..!
call me laa sumtime..!

Monday, November 05, 2007

lame tak update..

hoh, lamenye tak update..
malas ar..

ari ni, datang keje, grumpy gile..
tak penah aku dtg keje dengan perasaan gumbira, dan excited nak buat keje..
penah ke?
ade ke org excited nak gi keje?
ade kot..

feeling grumpy coz..
leceh ar period ni..
tapi nak buat camner..

hows ur weekn babe?
my weekn...
bloated n burp..
sebab open house berkoyan-koyan..
yesterday, best pegi open house..
tapi mlm tadi adalah sgt tak best, coz ujan lebat gile n both may darlings demam..
smlm langsung takleh nak tido..
mane tak nyer..
yg sorang tuh asik kuar masuk jamban.. till subuh..
yg sorang lagi asik merengek mitak susu..
ari ni bangun pagi aku lak rase cam nk demam..
ttapi.. sianlak kat dudes duerang tuh..
dah laa darling hubby gi gak keje ari ni, tho tgh demam..

can't wait for another weekn..
coz lepak2 dekat rumah is sumthing i treasure nowdays..
rumahku syurga ku...

Friday, October 26, 2007

kak wa balik dublin

tension nak serve boss nih, banyak laa songehnye..
macam2 bende.. kalo call, banyak plak cakapnyer.. meleret-leret..
kekadang letih nak tadah telinge..
kalo cakap stret to the point ape masalahnye..
macam2 plak..


smlm gi KLIA, antar kak wa balik dublin..
'sthn skali jek dpt jumpe kakak ipar aku sorang tuh..

am so adore her..


coz she's adorable..

since back in secretly adore her..
she's my senior..
she's so famous back then..
coz she's skool's sprinter, nettball player, basketball player
n a bit of player herself.. hehe ;p
she's ain't gorgeous or pretty..
but she's so adorable..
tapi mase skolah, we weren't talk to each other that much..
not that close..
but so glad she's my in law now..
hehe.. watever laa kan..

what makes she's so cool in my eyes..
she's able to work at Dublin, got paid Euro 2.5K permonth, married to a chef..
but still look good n youthful..
really cool..

not cool enuf..

here our pic..

from left..

hubby, me, kak wa n her hubby, mr.RAy-the-chef..

tgk kak wa, aku nampak lagi matured pade die kan?
no wonder she's able to pair wif 23 years old chef..
am so envy her..
not bcoz she's married a young chef..
but coz she's looking so young, staying oversea, gaji 2500Euro.. huh, aku gaji 2500 ringgit mesia pu takdapat, nak dapat in euro..hampehlaa..
dahlaa husband chef..
aku penah rase masakan Mr.Ray..
sodap gile..
bile laa dierang nak settle down kat mesia, buat open house.. best nyer..!

klaa, enuf about kak wa..
am gonna heading to buy nasi ayam hainam..

mlm ni balik kg.. yeayeay!

hepi friday!
njoy ur weekn!

Thursday, October 25, 2007


aku rase cam bloated gile..
coz pagi tadi dtg awal kat ofis, sempat laa membaham sebungkus nasi lepmak ngan susu kat kedai mamak bawah ofis papa..
becoz of that..
skarang perut aku rase bloated dan adalah sgt mengantuk..

umm.. ignore jer laa..

yg penting tomolo nak balik kg..
balik klantan plak..
anyway, sbenarnyer baru nak balik raye kat klantan..
tak kesahlaa..
lambat sket pun..
dan apply extra 2 days leave..
mengakibatkan aku sudah kehabisan annual leave..

so nex time nak cuti kene amik MC or unpaid leave laa..

tak kesahlaaa..

takde idea sebenarye nak mengarut psal pe..
pe2 jelaa..

so to all babes out there..
happy thursday..
no worry..
tomolo dah friday..

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


adalah sgt tidak ade mood nak mengupdate blog..
but since my pc has been used by sum1 else..
so tak tau nak buat pe..
terpakselaaa.. doing junk dekat sini..

oklaa let me put a pic..

from right.. is me, mak, adam ngan kak anim.. mase kat batu pahat..
dan di dlm pic ini, aku adalah sgt tidak gorjes..
adalah berase sangat tidak best... coz am always wanna be look gorjes.. huhuu~

Tuesday, October 23, 2007


dun have a clue what am to blog..
jez feel like blogging..


a few days back..
feeling like sumthing is wrong with my life..
feeling troubled.. anxious..
like there's lotsa matters r bordering me..
trying to figure out wat's this all about..

but lately, am really dun have time to sit down,
working my brain out..
thinking what i'm gonna do..
tomorrow.. next week.. next year..

what am really want in my life..

how am gonna work things out..
to grab everything i want in this life..

do am really grateful enough for what i have now..?

i am..?

yes i am..

am really Bersyukur to God..

coz am still able to breath..
to see..
to touch..
to smell..
to walk..
to think..
to have faith in YOU..
& to have everything YOU've given to me..

thank GOD..
for everything..

if i have enough gut to apology..

i wanna apologize..

speshly to my ummi..

sorry ummi...
if i broke your heart..
if am never be what u wanna me to be..
if am such a disappointment to u..
& am sorry coz am never been a good daughter..
am sorry.. so sorry..
thank you for being my mom..
thank you for being there for me..
thank you for growing me up..
thank you for everything u did n for everything you're gonna do for me..
thank you..thank you..

now am missing her so much..
n become very emotional..

better leave now & have a deep breath..
a deep thought..

Thursday, October 18, 2007

dah start keje laa

last nite tak sempat nak merepek pepanjang..
baru jek nak warm up, maktuk dah ajak balik..
today.. start working as usual..
but seems everybody still in the mood of raye..
pergi keje adalah sgt tidak menyeronokkan..
jalan adalah sgt clear & tidak jam..
tapi..! nak lunch, susah gile..
whether eat up at fast food or lunch dekat mamak stall..
all the mlayu eateries still shutting down their door..
even my lady boss also not in the mood of working..
coz she's coming @ 10:15 am n left @ 11:00 am..
bleh tak?
datang macam saje2 nak singgah..
baik tutup ofis terus..
siap mention kat aku..
"zetty, u balik awal laa ari ni.."
since she's dun give a real definition of balik awal..
so @ 4:00 am..
angkat kaki laa.. chow..

well, today..
i have to leave aiman @ maktuk's..
tho sbenarnye kak ayu yg babysit aiman..
tapi ari ni.. aiman really have a fun day..
coz kak ayu siap bawak die gi LCCT, antar mak balik Klantan..
pastuh pegi nilai.. umah kak anim..
then.. pusing KL plak.. skarang ni ade kat BB..
aku plak tgh tunggu anak bujang aku tak balik2 lagi ni..
tuh yg menyemak kat blog ni nih..
booring takde keje..

tapi oleh kerane aku sudah berjaye mendownload Cake Mania 2..
so, i jez proceed to show off my skill playing Cake Mania II game..

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

hari raye

tgh online using cik alif 3G laptop..
cik alif buat bbq, so fun.. tp tgh sangap tunggu maktuk ngan atuk salim abis borak2 ngan other makcik ngan pakcik..

really wanna babbling bout raye..
my raye was superb..
really fun..
tho raye kat batu pahat..
got to go
nak balik dah.. daa...

Friday, October 12, 2007

sux.. esok raye

sux gile ari ni..
nyesal aku tak apply cuti ari ni..
sume org dah balik kg dah start cuti raye..
bososnyer aku tak apply cuti ari..
adalah sgt mengantuk dan tensen..
i dun have time to pack a thing..
datang ofis this morning, open up sum lagu raye..
tapi, its jez sucking up more.. lagi tensen, coz everybody alredy siap2 nak raye esok..
but here i am.. stuck in the ofis...


Tuesday, October 09, 2007

3 days to go..

am feeling sleepy like hell..
dtg ofis..
b4 the lady boss' coming at 10:30am..
i still can find a place to land my head n have a sleeping beauty for an hour b4 the lady show up on door step..


finally, @ 10:00am..
this beautiful lids yg cam berat gile tadi dah fully awake..

n all the mengantukness already gone..
so i can start doing my job or doing crappy stuff..


hari ni nak kene buat brochure..
tapi takde idea lagi ar..
mesti nak kene buat best, best..
tgh cari idea ar ni..

sambil2 tuh, lets' talk bout raye..
3 more days to go..
tak sabar ar ni..
tapi still got a few things not marked yet..

[1] .:blusher + eye-shadow + set of brushes:.
[2] .:jewelery:.
[3] .:baju melayu for papa n aiman:.
[4] .:stilettos:.

umm, banyak gak.. sempat ke na beli nih?
nak tanak kene menyempatkan diri jugak..
kalo tak camne nak raye.. ye tak?


raye eve, balik batu pahat..
then 2nd raye return to kl..
raye kat kl jap for one day on 3rd raye..
heading to klantan..
huhu. ponat laa cenggini.. tapi takpe, raye nyer pasal..


baju raye?

the most important wardrobe of raye is baju raye laaa!
for me, got 2 kebaye..
one, plain red kebaye wif sarong..
*very nice.. my sis in law kak ayu beli kat padang, Indon..*
the other one, ordinary kebaye, flowery wif purple theme colour..
i put on sum diomonds, so takde ar nampak boring sgt..
then, an MNG dark brown beauty..
a big checkers bag..
a pair of stilettos
a new make up stuffs..
sum new jewelery.. *alaa, jewelery murah2 je.. yg look nice n funky.. not the gold one laa*

for aiman, 7 pairs of baju raye..
baju melayu of coz.. tak beli lagi.. maybe red or purple..
a pair of oshkosh's
2 pairs of poney's
a pair of Bino's
a pair of cartoon networks'
a pair of Crocodile Kids..
a pair of leather boots..
a pair of adidas..
still looking for a pair of Guess.
tapi cannot afford laa.. hahahahah..
nanti mama dah loaded, mama belikan banyak2 kat aiman..
InsyAllah.. Aaamin..

for papa..
a pair of baju melayu..
a pair of levi's n Quicksilver's
a pair of nike..
a pair of timberland..
n a pair a slipar jepun.. *hahaha! brand new what!*
alaa, nak buat gi smayang raye jer..
takleh pakai mahal2..
also a brand new seed's wallet..
and yg paling aku jeles, kak wa die belikan black leather swatch's from UK..
huhu~ nak jugak..!

ter'mention' psal kak wa..
what i did get from dublin?
a shirt.. EDS shirt..
memule aku tak tau pebende laa EDS ni..
bile aku tgk balik kat label..
EDS sbenarnyer stand for Esprit De Corp..
baru aku teringat.. cess..
oklaa not bad..
grey long sleeve wif horizontal stripe..
not really my type..
tapi dah org kasi
ok what..
thanx kak wa..!

n anything bout raye will continue later on..
sok ke.. luse ke.. lepas raye ke.. whenever.. wateva!


Monday, October 08, 2007

puase.. tp nak raye

ari nie puase really tiring.. tak tau nape..
lapar plak tuh..
biase puase takdelaa rase lapar..
pg tadi makan jamu laa, vitamin laa..
letih gak..

walaupun letih.. excitement nak raye makin meningkat ke tahap yg hampir maximum..
tak sabar ar ni..

nak raye..
pakai baju baru..
the best thing for raye tau ni..
every single thing for raye i can get it by myself n use my own money..

*phone's ringing.. jap..*

a few minutes later..


guess who called me?
my nephew, 4 yers ol Amir called..

amir: helo cik zetty.. amir ni..

me : amir.. nape called?

amir: amir rindu cik zetty laa..

me ; yeke.. good.. heheh..
me : amir gi skool tak ari ni?

amir: pegi..! cik zetty!cik zetty!amir blajar
slamat ari raye ari ni..

me : yeke? amir nyanyi2 slamat ari raye tak?

amir: tak, amir tak pandai.. tapi amir lukis
monster besar.. kaki die besar..
pastuh kalau die jalan die keluar asap ikut mulut..

me : oo yeke *ini mesti terpengaruh ngan ultraman tiga..*

amir: baby arif tgh tido.. oklah!bubbye!

me : bubbye..

camtuh je letak tepon..

*then a few second later..*

amir called lagi a few times till laa ibu die perasan die tgh main fon ibu die..
amir.. amir..

this fella, really cute..
sgt2 cute coz putih melepak macam mat saleh..
but really2 naughty hyperactive guy..
talkative n frenly..
he's got a 3 months ol baby brother..
jez like him, sgt comey..
his mom kak anim, my sis in law..
k.anim a former bank manager, now a full time housewife..
his dad, abg azral, a flight engineer at Air Asia.. sgt masyuk woo..
jarang2 jek dapat jumpe dierang, sbulan skali ade laa, coz dierang tinggal kat nilai.. nanti next month pindah sepang..
rumah sdiri, besau.. n sgt best..
sekian laa cerite psal amir n family..
happy monday!


my weekn's really hectic n tiring..
of coz wif the shopping stuff n household stuff.. raye stuff..
ooo ponat gilo..

since working, i ain't got enuf time to do the housework..
even on weekn..
whenever saturday comes, i'll be working till noon, n when i reach home, already fall out of energy..
usually ptg tuh, tido jek..
so on sunday laa i have to cover up averything..
time tuhlaa nak buat laundry bertimbun-timbun..
ari tuhlaa jugak nak lipat baju2 yg dah seminggu tak berlipat..
arituhlaa jugak nak mop2 lantai..
nak kemas2 ape patut.. nak lap barang2 yg dah berabuk..
dan ari tuh laa jugak nak kuar jejalan..
at the end of the day..
weekn dah abis camtuh je..
rindu mase jadi fulltime housewife dolu-dolu..
got the whole week for myself..

cam this weekn..
last saturday.. i ain't sleeping for almost 24hours..
after sahur that morning, tak tido balik..
cam biase buat keje2 rumah, siap cabut2 rumput lagi..
till 9 am, get ready, nak kuar umah pegi meeting..
meeting as always, so sux coz it end 2.30pm, gile lame meeting..
sumtimes meetin tuh ntah pe2..
buang mase je..
then, after meeting..
dropping at Sg.Wang.. the shopping heaven..
dapat laa grab a bag.. murah n gorgeous.. =D
then masuk lot10 lak, cari handbag..
masuk laa butik tuh, butik ni..
last2 end up kat MNG.. snatch a dark brown cutie cost 100++
boleh laa..
pastuh balik umah.. dah kul 5..
tup tap...tup tap..
dah kul 6, nak kene gi sentul lak bukak puase kat umah Che Nah..
last2 lambat plak sampai, bukak puase kat dlm kete je..
tapi best.. everybody was there, speshly my cousins..
borak2.. almost 9, dismiss..
heading to Jln TAR plak..
sampai kat sane, manusie punye laa ramai nak mati..
spending my time n my money there till dawn.. round 2.++ am, hubby's picked me up..
drop by at an Arabian Res.. sumwer at jln Ampang, lepak2 sambil makan sahur..
sampai laa almost 4 am...
time tuh dah tak larat nak mati..
tuhan saje laa yg tau..
balik tido..
next day tido sampai terbabas til 10 am..
terbabas coz, missed subuh..
*aku memang tak sedar k subuh tuh..*
n hubby's working at 10, n he's already lambat gile..
yelaa, mane taknye, keje masuk kul 10,tapi kul 10 baru bangun..
ape gi kelam kabut ar..
after he went to work..
sambung buat keje2 umah, tapi seriously tak larat, end up tido je..
sian aiman kat umah main sesorang..
jap2 datang kejut, minta susu laa.. minta amik tulaa.. amik ni laa..
noon, hubby returned..
bangun gi umah maktuk plak..
kak wa balik from dublin..
tak sabar ni nak jumpe kak wa..
yelaa.. dah setahun tak jumpe.. windu.. plus..
tak sabar nak tunggu gift from dublin..
bukak puase..
lepak2.. borak2..
balik.. tido...
abis dah weekn..
cam tu jer..

tak sempat nak relax bebetul..
i mean, lepak2, malas2 kat umah.. watching tv..
tuh pun banyak lagi keje2 umah yg tak sudah..
wish got more time for myself..

my boss' coming..

Friday, October 05, 2007

tak sahur..

shockingly this morning aku tak sedar bunyi alarm bangun sahur..
so we missed our sahur this morning..
n hubby jez call me now nak bukak puase..
watever, tanak puase sudah.. die yg tanggung dose, bukan aku..
kalo aku yang sengaje tak puase, he has to share the dosa wif me..
he's the husband who suppose to guide me..
malas nak bising2..
bising2 kat diri sdiri jelaa..
nanti aku sound, die plak bad mood..
aku pun tgh takde mood ni..
tgh ngantuk, n of coz dem hungry..
since last nite lagi, lapar gile..
bile tak sahur, melampau-lampau laa laparnyer..



i jez cudn't wait to do the shopping therapy..
i wanna shop to death..
lepas geram..
i can bet after going tru that therapy..
i'll be home with the big smile on my face =D

My Therapy's Ingredient List...
[1] .:Tudung-tudung:.
[2] .:HandBag:.
[3] .:Stilettos:.
[4] .:Make-up stuff:.
[5] .:Aiman's:.
[6] .:Baju Melayu for Papa:.

tuh je.. b4 ni rase cam banyak nak beli..
so kalo ade bajet lebih, banyak lagi ar kot yg bleh dibeli.. ;p
haaa, nak beli lagi laa pants kat COMMA tuh, comey laa..

ok, that's it..
feel like to jot more craps
but i jez don know what to crap..
crap or no crap..
chow dulu..

Thursday, October 04, 2007

cine )&*^%$$#@

stupid biatch..
tgh marah ar ni..
today's really a bad hair day..
since morning, i stuck outside my office, coz forgot to bring my own keys..
have to wait 1 hour n half, b4 i can step in to the office..
bodo laa.. huu~

this lunch break, am looking for kedai jahit to alter my baju kebaye, yg aku jahit kat kg, tapi tukang jahit tuh cam bangan gile, dah amik ukuran elok2, jahit baju aku cam aku overweight.. besar nak mati baju tuh.. dahlaa kain tuh kain mahal..
nak alter, tapi kedai jahit yg belambak-lambak kat melawati ni, satu pun tanak amik..
bukannye aku nak pakai raye..
arghh.. rasu cam nak turn jadi hogan jek..
*&&^%$%$##@#@$^*&(*)()(&^^& *mencarut ar ni..*

dah laa ari ni 1st day puase after break for 9 days..
daripada langsung tanak tinggal puase, skali kene tinggal samapi 9 ari..
haaa, amik ko..

ngantuk gile ar ni..
ingat nak kuar gi Alpha Angle jap..
tapi malas ar..
malas nak pegi sdiri..
kalo ade orang antarkan ok gak..

tgh tension ni..
the only way nak hilangkan tension..
umm.. bile nak shopping ni..

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

jalan-jalan cari wallet..

yesterday, lunch break..
i was hopping around alpha angle..
*no ayip..he was sucked up wif his anime back in office..*
looking for the wallet for hubby's..
finally i grab one from SEED..
oklaa, SEED not a big brand, but i think SEED is cool enuf..
it's a black long leather wallet..
it's price 100++ but got 50% off, so it's cheaper..
pheww..! save budget aku..
n wif sum money left, i bought a pair of pant, black pant from COMMA..
pant itu adalah sgt comey..
n cost me only 39bux.. n it's COMMA..
oklaa COMMA ain't famous, but i luv to shop at COMMA, coz the pants all kiut miut, senang nak carik aku nyer size..
n the shirts pretty funky, but not really my type..
but i luv the pant so much.. murah plak tuh.. best.. best..

this weekn nak shopping raye..
but got a meeting this saturday morning.. malasnyer..
tapi dah plan, after meeting nak singgah
lame gile tak gi, tho almost evry week lalu depan sg. wang..
*naik monorail stop kat Raja Chulan, lalu depan ok..*
hope i cud find a gorgeous stilettos n handbag over there..
tapi tak best coz kene treasure hunting sesorang..
umm.. tak kesahlaa.. janji dapat barang baik punye..

k,laa nak usha2 skin jap..

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

feeling sleepy like hell..
everyday feel like wanna sleep all day long..
not enuf nutrients kot..
umm.. ye kot..

today's papa befday..
baru umur 25.. still a young age for a guy..
at first, wanna get a wallet for him..
then i ask kak wa @ dublin buy it for me,of coz i pay laa..
coz kak wa is the lady wif the highest taste in the world..
she cudn't find any of it..
then try to ask ayip to accompany me to go to alpha angel yesterday..
n he promised me already..
but he seems bz wif his mom..
taktaulaa camner plak..
bajet dah ade ni.. rugi tak beli..

smlm pegi amik kete.. papa spray kete kaler matte black..
kaler yg langsung tak berkilat..
kekadang tgk cam buruk jek..
kekadang tgk cam ok..
slalu nampak cam buruk ar..
huh, taktaulaa..
dah mahathir nak keter kaler tuh nak buat camner..

boring ar ni.. sbenarnyer ngantuk gile..
nak buat keje, cam biase ar.. malasnyer..

Friday, September 28, 2007

junk.. mlm ni balik kg..

This morning woke up as early as 6:30am..
*x puase ok…*
last nite settle down to sleep as late as 2:00 am..
so my hubby already have his sahur before went to sleep, so
we dun have to get our ass up 3 hours later to have sahur..

this morning, got up..
doing laundry.. 2 round..
pack up.. getting ready nak balik kg tonite…
*yeayea balik kg.. best nyer..! =D*
tup tap.. tup tap..
already 8:30..
try to get everybody up..
'everybody" is jez hubby n aiman je sbenarnye..
as usual..
the hubby 10 minutes later baru bangun..
n aiman langsung tak bangun till angkat die hantar rumah babysitter..

getting ready.. go to work..
when I reach the office.. the lady boss is already here..
awal gile die dtg ari ni..
so, I have to start my work as early as I reach office laa..
but, still here I am..
writing this junk..


Thursday, September 27, 2007

finally got sum lil time for my self..
actually dari tadi all the time i'm doing my own stuf..
chat ngan w.rose..
pegi pasar ramadan..
buat tulaa.. buat nilaa..
cume nak tido je tak sempat..
gile makan gaji bute pompuan ni.. heheheh

here are my lil handmade yg comey..

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

outside is raining

it's raining heavily outside..
abislaa.. i jez did my laundry this morning..
tak laa byk, tapi.. abislaa..

suddenly i'm on wif a feel good feeling.. dunno y..
maybe bcoz i jez membaham separuh bekas Almond london tadi..
yum..yum.. i bought em 30bux for 100 pcs..
murahkan..? tho the stuffs takde laa sedap sgt, tapi okla,
coz dat biskut raye ade coklet..

while lepak2 wasting time, i 'ter'read one article in star's mention about maid..
bile cakap psal maid ni..
teringat k.imah..
my husband's grandma's maid..
k.imah ni basically a nice gal..
she's indon n slightly older than me..
dulu mase awal2 kawen, i can sense die cam tak suke aku..
*tho my husband's grandma herself kinda not really into me..*
k.imah ni rajin buat keje..
tapi die ni suke menyibuk psal hal2 family..
then die suke buat citer n jadi batu api between family member..
die penah cakap kat mak sedare ni, yg maktuk ni lagi sayang mak sedare yg lagi satu..
coz mak sedare yg lagi satu ni byk duit..
bleh tak die pegi racun2 org mcm tuh..
cam kurang ajar gile laa kan..
last time, die couple ngan bangla..
*indon ngan bangla.. eloklaa tuh..*
banglaa tuh slalu kasi duit kat die..
die pun dah nak kawen ngan bangla tuh..
skali mak bapak die kat kg tak kasik..
sian k.imah..
takde jodoh lagi..

so kesimpulannye..
aku rase laa kan.. macam yg minah tuh tulis dlm the star tuh..
maid ni bukan sume jahat..
aku rase ramai je yg ok..
tapi, dah pegi amik maid yg bukan m'sian..
it's gonna take lotsa efforts n patience laa..
coz dierang ni come from a very different background dr kite..
so cam susah ar sket nak adapt ngan kite nyer lifestyle..
lagipun sume org not perfect..
ade je cacat celanye kat memane..
*macam aku jugak =) *

to k.imah..
sumtimes u can be a real pain in the ass..
sumtimes u r very nice..
thanx.. coz tolong jage maktuk ngan atuk salim elok2..

selamat hari raye..

red flag

no wonder few days back aku rase cam grumpy gile..
dem.. period of the month..
tot gonna period this coming syawal..
rupe2 nye tgh jln lagi dah kibar red flag..
umm.. nak buat camner...

tgh takde idea yg menarik nak tulih..
mayb i shud go n find sum idea first..

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

flower in hand

nothing interesting..
hari ne buat design label for hand washing liquid..
dapat jumpe gambar tgn sume kat getty images..
ni haa gambar tgn yg cantik2 itu..
tapi yg pakai kat label 1 jek..

Monday, September 24, 2007

takde mood..

today am really not in the mood..
tho the weekn is great..
both sat n sun we'r berbuke outside..
my x-skoolmet buat small gath kat umah nolie sumwer in segambut..
the most happening time that nite, when mc ar's coming..
she's kinda a celeb rite now..
n she's slimmer n drop dead gorjes..
everybody like..
"woa.. mc ar..
comey nyer mung!"
she's hella fat n big b4, she's even got diabetes ever
since she's 5 years ol..
but now, she's slimmer,thanx to green apple diet.. wer she jez eat the green apple without eating nasik at all for more than 3months.. huh!
kalo aku, jgn harap laa nak tinggal nasik, 3months lak tuh..

yesterday plak..
k.ayu buat majlis bukak puase kecik2 jek..
coz smlm haikal 4th befday..
everybody's was there..
i was so happy to see all of em..
even aiman having a great time.. coz all the cousins were there..
but sayang takde camera nak captured all the budak2 comey n nakal2 itu..
btw, good news..
k.anim nak jual digicam die kat aku..
best..! best..!
digicam die memang best..
good thing bleh buat installment..
n aku bleh bayar sket2..
n konfem kat anim jual murah jek..
but the thing is, i'll buy it by my my own duit..
coz hubby also buy thing from kat anim.. her PDA..
slalu jek dpt 2nd hand frm k.anim..
oklaa tuh..
nak beli baru cam mahal sgt..
beli ngan k.anim lagi better..
coz all the gadget from her are the highest quality..
ok wat, 2nd hand pun..better laa kan..

sgt demoralized..
taktaulaa nape..
sgt in the mood nak balik kg..
tak sabar gile..
tapi balik 2 hari jek..
tak kesahlaa..
lagipun bukan papa kene drive..
dahlaa dapat naik kete best..
ee cannot wait laa..
cepatlaa friday..

Friday, September 21, 2007

need a boost..

ok, the truth is..
i'm bored..
bored like *&^%%$....
i need to do sumthing to boost my energy..
i'd luv to do sky diving..
i'd luv to snowboarding..
or snorkling..
or scuba diving..
arghh..! (*sambil menarik tudung yg telah senget benget..*)

i jez view this fotopages safiyah-maisarah..
she's a daughter of one of my short scandal b4 i dump him for my husband..
he's now married (shortly after i get married), have a daughter n staying at sheffield.. his wife studying there..
ape aku nak citer sbenarnye..?

sbenarnye aku nak citer yg aku dengki tgk mamat tuh, yg tak seberapa kacak pun (laki aku lagi jauh lagi kacak)tapi dapat tinggal kat oversea, anak dpt growing up kat oversea.. bestnyer..
aku dengki sebab bukan aku nak kat die, nyesal dump die ke..
hohoho.. jauh sekali tidak..
cume aku jeles gile kat die..
coz.. what a wonderful life they have..

seriously ok..
daughter die of coz laa kurang comey, lagi comey aku nyer aiman..
tapi look at those pics.. yg kurang comey pun jadi jauh lagi comey..

i think i wanna put 1 more thing on my wish list..
i wanna staying at the New Zealand n grow up a family there..
why New Zealand..?
becoz my brother n sis in law already staying there..
n i think i'm also wanna join 'em ..
who knows..?
we can have a more exciting wonderful life over there..

ummm.. (*berfikir sambil menggaru-garu kepala yg gatal..*)
i think it's pretty good idea..
maybe i shud propose my husband..

Thursday, September 20, 2007


while am on my ride wif my husband this morning..
i was thinking about..being grateful..
the first thing that i would like to thank God is..
a wonderful family that i have.. my husband n my son..

but now..

i feel like am going to burst into tears..

one nite..

i came across of my ol journal on my pc..
i read back.. n realize..
those time..
when i jez get married.. n jez have my baby...
there's lotsa love in the air..
i love my husband deeply..
i love aiman fondly..
tho at those time, we'r badly struggling wif our financial..
but, it's ok.. how bad it could be, we still have each other..

but today..


the air of love dah macam tercicir a bit by a bit when day goes by..
i start to feel annoyed wif him.. almost everyday..
sumtimes i can be a real pain in his ass..
so does him..
probably he feel the same way bout me..

dulu2.. nak pegi memane.. mesti nak ajak aku follow skali..
tapi skarang, he prefer me not to follow him n stay home..
sumtimes i feel like terkilan..
why in the world he act like that?


before i start to work..
he used to promise me, when i start to have a job..
he would help me with the houseworks..
but the promise.. was jez a promise..
aku bukan nak sgt pun die buat keje2 umah..
at least show sum concern ok..
he never help me out wif the houseworks..
but worse..
balik jek.. die jez baring depan tv tgk bola..
n me..
i will start tidy up my room.. (basically bersepah ngan baju die gak..)
then go to dapur, prepare for dinner..
after that settle with aiman ( aiman's always take a loo rite after i take him frm the babysitter house)
then, the kids will come down to my house, tution..
after 1 hour n half..
the kids gone, n i'm already flat out..
but he..
biasenye time tuh die dah ready2 nak kuar umah, jumpe kekawan plak..
n my work not finish yet, coz the laundry also bertimbun-timbun lagi..
that's the time when i feel really2 annoyed wif him..

n sumtimes..

while we'r at work..
we have lunch together, he treat me like i nobady to him..
like i jez sumone he know who jez has lunch with him..
then kalo berjalan, biaselaa..
he will walk a few steps ahead of me.. instead of jalan sesame..
ape lagi nak pegang2 tgn..

he has this kind of attitude..
bile kat luar or when there's sumbody else..
this kind of attitude like..
"oo, die bini aku, buat ape aku nak peluk2 die,
pegang2 tgn die depan org.. alaa, she can handle herself..
buatpe aku nak risau lebih2.."

tapi bile kat rumah,
he want me to treat him like anak raja..
basically i jez do it..
he's my husband, n i luv to spoil him..
but does he do the same thing towards me..?

he does sumtimes hug me from behind..
n kiss me.. he do that alot while we r home..
it's the only thing i luv about him..
when he wake up in the morning, he asks for a kiss first, n hugs..
then kiss my son.. hugs..

that's the reason why i love him..
becoz sumtimes he can be so sweet..

i think..

love alone doesn't enuf in a relationship..
especially, a life time commitment..
we have to work on lotsa things..
like a flower..
to keep it grow n berbunge dgn cantik..
kene letak baja.. n siram hari2..
kalo tak siram..tak letak baje..
bunga tuh jadik layu..
tak cantik..
n lame2 mati..
that's the same thing happen in a relationship..


i'm trying to do the best of me to keep the relationship grow..
sumtimes i feel i wanna took time off from him..
but i dun have time off, even for awhile..
but i do think, how to keep it grow..?
i couldn't find a way..

i jez hope n pray to Allah..
this relationship..
this little family..
will stay grow ever n after..
coz i wanna wait for him..
in Pintu Syurga..

i willingly to give my heart, my body n my soul.. to u..
never cross in my conscious mind to give u up..
u'r the best man i ever find to keep me warm at nite..
to make me smile when the day start to shine..
to burst a tear when the sunshine gone n the rain start to pouring down..
i pray n keep my hope..
u'r always be there when the rainbows come..
n whenever it's gone..
i love u..'

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

sleepy face

hari ini adalah sgt mengantuk..
seriously takde mood nak buat keje..
as always, hari2 dtg design label..

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

the cantankerous feelng had gone..
now i feel good.. *sengih..sengih..*
coz tadi gi pasar ramadhan ngan ayip..
*papa..jgn marah.. =)*
die jadi tour guide..
slalu pegi sesorang, kalo ade org teman best gak..
lagi2 yg temankan tuh anak ikan yg gorjes lak..
heheh.. *gatal laa pulak minah ni..*
finally dpt jugak beli lasagna yg nampak cam best itu..
memang nampak cam best, aku rase memang best coz everytime aku turun pasar ramadan at 5:30, lasagna die dah tinggal a few pieces.. esok nak try die nye berry cheese cake plak..
aku tgk die nyer cake..
nyum..nyum.. nampak cam best gile..
tapi kan, die nyer price cam beli dekat secret recipe plak..
kalo sedap cam secret recipe oklaa..

nak pegi smayang asar lak..

thanx ayip, temankan akak pegi pusing2 kat pasar ramadan..

wink.. wink..



aku pepagi dtg ofis bengang gile..
aku dah 2 minggu tak jumpe bos..
die suh aku buat design utk label detergent2 tuh..
pastuh banyak songeh plak..
masalahnyer, everything die jez tinggal note jek..
zetty, but tuh..buat nih..
then, zetty... tukar tuh tukar nie, tukar tuh..
n ade this one artwork, for advert kat dlm flyers media focus..

die suh aku tukar background ade gambar bukit bulat2 n ade gambar helang...
gambar2 yg dah ade pun dah berminggu2 aku carik..
mane aku nak carik gambar bukit bulat ade gambar helang or kelawar..

pastuh die suh aku buat design pelik2..
kekadang bende yg die suh, aku buat tuh takleh nak buat..
tapi aku takleh nak xplen kat die by note, coz i have to explain verbally, dem!
bos aku plak, die tak dtg keje siang..
die keje mlm jek..
lagi2 bln puase ni..
after terawih baru dtg ofis...

that's the thing makes me wanna switch my job..


Monday, September 17, 2007


hey, today the fifth day we puase rite..
n ari ni adelah hari plg tak meltihkan.. yey..!

do you see the mood icon at the bottom..
it's show that i'm ambitous today..

everytime i go to the meeting at Prudential,
i will be return feeling very ambitious..
yup, i'm gonna change my pathway to be an insurance agent..
seriously ok..
what i like to be in the Prudential,
everyday we will meet ppl who very hardworking n
motivated wif high self-esteem..
n seeing 'em..
really drive me up..

i really wanna grab my goal, that this coming
May 2008
i'll got paid 5grand per month..


it's not that i terkejar-kejar all the materials n glamorous stuff..
i jez wanna make mylife better n able to help other ppl..

that's the stuff i wanna catch around, sooner..


work hard..
pray hard..
luv loads..

papa.. aiman.. luv u sooo..

May 2008
RM5,000 Monthly

Thursday, September 13, 2007


lately my lady boss dtg awal..
tak sempat nak buat bende2 ngarut kat ofis..
biase 1st 2hours,mesti sesorang jek kat ofis..
so at that time laa aku buat kejer2 mengarut..
cam update blog..
bace blog org..
update frenster..
n yadaa..yadaaa..

tak tau laa nape k.sidah *she's the lady boss, ok*..
slalu dtg awal.. tak best ar..

today, the fasting holy month has started.
we bangun sahur only eat nasik berlauk ikan sardin n serunding daging.
not bad, walaupun takdelaa sedap sgt..
but okla..
till, 10 am now..
takde rase letih pun lagi..

well, hope this Ramadhan i could change my way of life..
change a bit to be a better person..

Tuesday, September 11, 2007


hey, i'm back...! using my ol' blog..
hahaha.. before this pakai the bellemommy..
tapi that one aku rase cam cux gile..
aku rase this one lagi gorjes n cool..
i change the pic..
see, ain't that lady is gorjes..
i wish it is me..

i feel vewy apathetic gile..
unmotivated n sleepy..
uaaaarghhh... *menguap dengan mulut terbuka seluas-luasnya..*
takde idea lagi nak blog ape..
ayb sumtimes later..
beside the skin template tak update lagi..
maybe later on also..
maybe i shud get back to work..