well, ppl keep cerite having good time with their own mom.
but i dun really have a pure sweet memories with my ummi.
am kinda sad. n now, i do feel sad.
if only i cud breakaway from whatever things around me now.
jez left like that.
i feel sucks now.
the only happiness that can bring the smile in me, jez hunky.
i miss hunky alot.
sob..sob~

it is so many time i've tried to think what the best for me.
but stil, i cudn't figure out what.
it sucks ok. sgt sucks.
coz everyone around me now, is jez trying to let me down.
and i cudn't find any single humanbeing who i can really trust and lean on..
not even hunky.. coz he's barely understand me..
am crushing down..


Ya Allah..
ampunkanlah aku..

i have a few blogs that am gonna read regularly.speshly miss chics, one hell funny lady. everytime read ppl blog, membuatkan aku rase cam nak blogging gak. tapi bile dah start type tekan2 keypad, mesti rase cam, malas nyer aku nak menaip.huhu~
whatever..
lets talk bout books.. or novel...
i started to read english novel, mase dah nak abis skolah. n my fav books time tuh of coz from sydney sheldon.bleh dikatakan, 90% of his book aku bace sume. dulu2, aku ingatkan sydney sheldon ni pompuan tau. sebab buku die sume citer psal pompuan, rupe2 nyer die laki. dahlaa name sydney. name heroin fav aku dalam alias. hehe..
aku ingat lagi, after spm, aku spend my time everyday pegi library kat kota bharu.
menghabiskan mase berejam looking for books and aku akan bawak balik, sydney sheldon nyer buku yg satu buku tuh, ade tiga novel die bind skali. then, pinjam 3bind books dan terkemut2 pegang buku tuh naik bas balik umah. time tuh mule laa berase diri ini sgt hebat, meminjam english novel yg sgt tebal dan banyak n sume org pandang aku dengan pandangan 'apahal-budak-ni?'.. hehehe..
bile dekat ukm, i was really fond with chrichton's books. aku dah lupe ape cite yg aku dah bace. yg aku ingat, timeline, airframe n ade satu citer yg best tapi aku dah lupe ape tajuk die. chrichton's nyer buku dah banyak jadi movie cam jurassic park and timeline. my fav of all, timeline.. sape nak pinjam, aku ade buku tuh.hardcover lagi. tapi citer tuh banyak citer psal physics quantum, so anyone who not really into physics stuf, aku tak rekomen ar.
anyway, since kecik2 lagi. am such a library freak. i luv library. aku banyak gile jadi membe dekat public library. speshly, perpustakaan negara of coz, Bangi public library, Kelantan Public library yea jugak dan sewaktu dengannyer. kalo sape2 tau kat mane lagi ade public library, jangan malu2 bagitau aku yek.
becoz am such a library freak, aku tak penah beli buku sdiri. slalu pinjam kot org. kecuali ade sale dekat ukm, buku hard cover jual less than RM12, sgt murah ok.. time tuh laa aku rajin membeli buku. tuhpun buku yg best2 tak banyak sgt, sebab sume org dah beli. so, keje aku meminjam jelaa. yg slalu jadi mangse, adalah kakak ipar aku yg ayu itu, name pun seri rahayu. org nyer memang ayu dan berbudi bahase. also a book freak.yeay.. most recent book yg aku bace.. sydney sheldon's if tomorrow comes. ni pun ntah brape kali dah aku bace, aku pun tak ingat dah sgt die nyer jalan citer.hehe..
so, babe..
ade buku best, kasi pinjam laa kat aku yek..
XD

compliment day..

i was starting wif a really good mood..
but, it's starting to screw up, a bit n a bit..
coz, hell.. i'm alone in this creepy crawly office..
well, this office not that creepy anyway, i jez hate spending my time alone.
don't u think it's kinda sux?
hell yeah..
dah laa my ear today macam agak tersumbat..
as tersumbat like u bawak kereta naik bukit yg sgt tinggi.
macam kite kat a lower pressure atmosphere, macam kat atas gunung2.
adakah telinga aku ini sangat tidak betul, atau ianya sekadar ingi berada di atas gunung ganag.. huhuu.. gedik ar telinge aku ni..

lately, spending my time alot on mobster at myspace..
sgt best..
aku nyer mobs dah 600+.. tapi cam tak gune gak, coz mobs limit to 500 jek..
so takde gune ar tambah lebih2.. menyemak kat aku nyer frenlist jek..
sambil2 tuh, sgt suke membeli belah human pet..
dan aku sgt suke menjadi pet.. dan terase diri ini agak glamor.. yeay~

arghh~
rase sux again.. huhu~
its oklor..
ptg ni balik kg..
huhu~
i can't wait..
trip to kg.. sounds really great..

still..

am still frozen here. not going anywhere.
sangat sux, coz nothing interesting occur lately..
but, am kinda happy wif my love life.. *and my sex life also =)*
am such a happy wife.. weee~
rase cam nak tukar keje..
tapi tgh pikir, what kind of kejer i shud switch to..
am consider being a unit trust agent, kalo buat unit trust bebetul, bleh cepat dapat duit.. so, wif sum money, i can do anything i wish for..
like taking courses in fine arts or graphic design, or photography..
humm... menarik jugak tuh..
ok, another option perhaps?
gov servant..?
err.. am not sure laa about that..
tho, being in gov, ur job will be 99% secure..
but.. ur life will be routine.. and.. i don't know..
it's jez dun interest me..
anything else..? humm..?
graphic design?
well, i jez have a really basic knowledge bout design..
i dun think i confident enough doing that kind of job...
but' i wud really luv to try..
so..
what kind of job i want..?
humm~ tgh pikir ar ni..

life sux..

life kinda not that interesting lately..
but am still survive.. no worry..
am kinda have the urge to meet and getting know sum new ppl..
making new friend..
even sum makcik in shopping mall or pasar would do..
i don't know why..
i luv ppl who honest and so truthful with their life..
sometime, when looking at them, tho they jez jual sayur at pasar..
but they have the aku-sangat-gembira-dgn-hidup-aku look..
n they jez can't stop smiling..
humm..
if only i cud feel that way....

all my life, i've been thru such a complicated life..
i dun know why..
my childhood kinda normal..
but becoz the mulfunction relationship between me and my parents, speshly my dad..
turn me into such a trouble maker..
am always in trouble.. no matter what..
how can i do to straight things up, so there's no more trouble in my life..
no more susah hati..
no more "ape aku nak buat ni.."
banyak lah no more nyer..
so how ar..

shud take some time, n thinking..
think alot..

oklor..
today there wud be another jogging session..
talking bout jogging..
aku sangt suke berjogging lately..
coz my fav jogging spot ade seorang anak ikan yg extremely hot n good looking.. phew~
bukan aku nak menggatal ok, tapi sekadar cuci mate..
at that park.. i'm the only chic yg jog kat situh, yg lain sumer aunty2 and uncle berserta beberape org apek..
and suddenly, a past few day, this hot looking anak ikan dtg jogging kat sini..
oh chenta..!
everytime die muncul, aku akan tersenyum tersipu-sipu seorang diri..
namenyer syok sdiri ar.. coz he dun even look at me..
sblah mate pun tak,ok..hehe..
alaa no worry laa.. he probably 10 years younger than me..
oh, adakah aku begitu tue..?
makne nyer.. budak tuh kemungkinan besar adelah budak skolah..
tapi die extremely tall.. and his look.. gulp!~
stakat cuci mate bleh laa..
oklaa tuh, dapat jogging n cuci mate..
ok what..
hahaha~