january gone

tomorrow..
1st month of 2008 already end..
n the february come
the time click faster than i thought
huum..

oklaa, i dun wanna be sad anymore..
i wanna be happy n enjoying life more
n yeah.. everything started to go well, tho this nood i jez scratch my drive wif other car..
arghh! macam mane laa aku terscratch keter tuh
tuhlaa sape suh parking double side
dan oleh kerana, no one was there
n i dun farking know who's the owner..
so, wtf laa kan.. blah jelaa
coz am already have enuf trouble nanti balik umah..
mesti jejaka kacak kat rumah nanti muncung dan seriously membebel cam maknenek..
adui...

biarjelaa..


skarang tgh browsing.. what's the farking hottest song now?
last few weeks dok layan bubbly - colbie caillet
2,3 ari ni layan tattoo - jordan spark (sound's lame.. tapi oklaa..)
tapi ari ni layan lagu lame macy's day parade - green day..
skali skale layan lagu lame, feel ar gak..
for me laa
i can feel the song..
tapi listen to this song maybe demoralized ur soul a bit..
wtf..
layan je..

Green DayMacy's Day Parade

Music Videos And Lyrics On Demand

.: Macy's Day Parade :.
Today's the Macy's Day Parade
The night of the living dead is on its way
With a credit report for duty call
It's a lifetime guarantee
Stuffed in a coffin 10% more free
Red light special at the mausoleum

Give me something that I need
Satisfaction guaranteed to you
What's the consolation prize?
Economy sized dreams of hope

When I was a kid I thought
I wanted all the things that I haven't got
Oh. I learned the hardest way
Then I realized what it took
To tell the difference between
Thieves and crooks
A lesson learned to me and you

Give me something that I need
Satisfaction guaranteed
Because I'm thinking about
A brand new hope
The one I've never known
Cause now I know
It's all that I wanted

What's the consolation prize?
Economy sized dreams of hope
Give me something that I need
Satisfaction guaranteed
Because I'm thinking about
A brand new hope
The one I've never known
And where it goes
And I'm thinking about
The only road
The one I've never known
And where it goes

And I'm thinking about
A brand new hope
The one I've never known
Cause now I know
It's all that I wanted

wheel

well..
life is like a wheel
u heard that so many time
my life is being very tough lately
it so hard
sumtimes i dunno what am should do
am trying to be very positive.. or at least.. being optimist..
but still it's really hard..

if u guys got tru my blog since years back..
u can see am a bad luck person..
not that am blaming God or what for all the bad things happen to me
only my life always turn bad..
am not blaming anyone
the matter itself come from my own mistake.. my own stupidity..
and my own immature thought..

getting so stress lately.. makes my look unpretty..
seriously..
u'll agree if u look at me now..
zits is over my face..
know what.. 4 last 2 years, my face aint have any zits at all..
now it's over the place..
arghh..!
makes me more stressful..

well..
am trying to pick only on the positive side..
so sooner or later i dun break down..
or giving up..
i jez wanna live happily..
yeah, happily..

now i know what i want for 2008..

being happy!

God bless everybody..

2008

my 2008 new year started badly..
on new year eve..
i have heated argument wif my husband..
sampai aku lari kluar rumah bawak aiman..
at 12:30 midnite, ppl celebrating new year..
but am bringing my son, driving out of nowhere..
til 2:30am.. am so tired n sgt2 mengantuk, so terpakse balik..

the next day,
thank God, we can clear things up..

i really hope this 2008 bring more happiness, health n wealth to me n my family..
but, since new year eve, it's getting worst..
my love life..
my career path..
my life..
it's getting complicated every each day..
rase cam nak giving up pun ade..
but i ain't loser..
i have to survive for whatever it is..

arghhh!!!!!

still trying to sort things out..
manage everything in proper way,
so it ain't going to mess up..

Lord..

pls gimme strength..

fucking mad

am fucking mad!
seriously..!

am sick of u!
am tired of being good n loyal.
tired to be the one who jez try to forgive n forget.
tired to be the one who try to make things right.
tired to be the one who pretend everything will be ok

i make u breakfast
i wake u up in the morning
i make luv wif u
i give u a son
i give u my trust
i give u my loyalty
n what i hate most
i luv u Goddem much

but i sick of it
dem tired of everything

i know i shouldn't tell everybody bout what inside, between u n me..
but how i can pretend nothing happen
coz my heart is in fucking hurt now

at first i start to cry over n over
as like i do whenever u hurt me
but from now on
i won't..
i won't cry anymore
i won't cry over such a lame person
u can be that pathetic for ur whole life
but i won't be the same person as u r

for the sake of our child
i'll stuck wif u as long as i cud
coz deep inside, there's still left the luv we have shared b4
after what we have been tru
i dun wanna give up everything jez like that
i still wanna try to work things out
speshly work on my life

u can do what u wanna do
coz am already tired to be hurt
coz broken heart suck up ur desire
desire to move on

i want to move on
move on wif my life
there're lotsa of opportunity lying ahead me
if u wanna share wif me
go on.. wif open arms..
if u dun give a dem.. i dun give a fuck honestly

am a strong woman
i've been tru lotsa obstacles
but am still survive
so, whatever happen to me in my future
i'll survive.. coz am know.. am a survivor

God bless me..

Amiin..

insecurity

the insecurity really kills me inside out..
am really torn apart jez now..
but thanx to wan rose..
i feel alot better..
u'r rite..
thinking bout the past, makes u doom in..
learn from the mistakes..
n work it out gal..

sing it to me galz..

"go zetty..go zetty..go zetty..go zetty"

yeah..

i luv u babes!!!

muahXXX....~
muahhxxx..~