2 months..

it's almost 2 months i ain't blogging..
lotsa things happen.. good n bad things..
one of the event i can't forget is raye..
huhu.. i met that stoopid gal at nolie's wed..
she's trying to avoid me all along..
i can't see the hate in her face..
well baby.. jez take ur hate to ur entire life.. i dun care..
i know u r suffering when seing me wif my beloved husband..
well, i dun mind if every gals fren were by ur side ignoring me.. coz i got my husband beside me all the time..
pa, i luv u..
mmmuuaaahhh...!!!
n wut else ah...?
erm..
the most bad thing happend.. we lost our saving rm3000 becoz of being stupid..
it's our fault... both of us.. n the sad thing is.. that saving is actually for our baby.. n now we in the hell.. try to find a way to get back the money coz hell the money we have now ain't enuf for my baby..
God help me...
well..
*sigh....*
2004 is really the worst year in my life..
i dun want to remember any single things had happened in this horrible years..
flash back..
early of the year.. i was greaving after that stupid moron, fariz fucker (well, seems to me he's celebrating his 1 year relationship with that bitch this month, hepi anniversary dudes!)
then i lost my frenship with amar.. (for a long while i guess..)
then i started to have my wild life..
fooling around..
start to ruin myself with cigar n drinks..
then i get fucked n get preganant..
then get married..
then damaging my ten years frenship wif my fren.. used to be a best fren perhaps..
get my study ruined..
n lastly, lost rm3000 for my stupidity...
i hope it's enuff for this year..
n now i'm counting down my day to deliver this innocent lil baby..
i hope n i pray..
when this lil boy meet the world..
he would bring such a good luck n happiness to our life...
insyaAllah..
n may 2005 bring back all those happiness that i had miss so much..
n to my beloved husband..
i love u so much..
body n soul..
i dunno how i can make it tru this without u my love..
i love u.. i love u..
n i always do..

at the com lab..
i woke up eraly tho i slept at 2am n woke at five to sahur..
the i woke up again at 8:20am.. i called sya, nak tumpang gi fak..
n she sed she gona go at 9:30 n i continue my sleep tho i already mandi n bersiap2..
sedar2 dah 9:45..
urm..
i send my thesis at my departmen.. n i went to pejabat dekan to give my letter nak cuti satu sem.. skali org kat ofis tuh yg muke cam beruk, main campak jek surat aku ntah memane.. celake tul.. there! aku dah mencarut pepagi.. aku punye laa buat muke baik, baik ati sabar jek tunggu.. dah takde org nak melayan kat depan kaunter tuh.. staf2 kat pejabat dekan tuh memang celake ar.. tak frenly langsung.. kalo surat aku tak lulus.. nanti dr.jai tak dapat aku nyer surat.. memang makcik tak sedar diri tuh nak kene maki ngan aku ar..
huh!
well.. pepagi dah mencarut..
aku nak study.. but i'm not in the mood of study..
last nite, i can't sleep..
n i sorprise myself, i woke up n study..
ade laa gak hasil nye..
oklaa..
gotta leave..

erghhhh...
dem bored..
open my frenster.. n view sum other ppl pages.. including tasya..
she's one hot chick.. like to partying n luv music n dancing alot..
remind me of i use to be before.. partying around.. smoking cigar n sisha..
kinda cool rite.. huum.. my hepi times..
becoz of wanna be cool n hot..
here i am.. pregnant n phsycologily sick...
muahahhahaahhaaa..
it's midnite now.. i better leave..
wer my husband? hey.. i dun sleep wif u for 3 days now.. wer r u at now?
i want my nafkah batin! heeeeeeeeeeee.....

tired maa

fucking tired..
last nite i slept at 4:30 in the morning.. doing prep for my final presentation..
n sooo glad coz it's over now.. the presentation going smoothly though at the end wen the lecturers asking lotsa questions n i jez like kerang busuk.. dem.. i dun even can't remember wat i have done wif the project.. erghhhh...
miss my hubby so much.. today is really lazy sleepy day... i'm tired but not that hungry.. gota go..
choa..

fucking sick..

i'm tired.. sick of the bullshits.. tak abis2 lagi..
fuck it!
last nite i met imi n mjol..
that couple.. at first i reluctant to met them..
n then my husband as always jez said to me that he jez wanna show of to them how much we luv each other n how happy our life now..
n that gal imi kinda shock when see me free hair n jez wearing a tanktop n jacket..
then me n my hubby get two new clothes for me n change the clothes right away..
n then we met again that couple at delifrance...
well, the conversation went smoothly...
but i know what kind of gal that imi could be..
she's never like me since skool..
so last nite.. i dun know if our conversation was sincere or not..
i think everybody was being hipocrit.. acting nice to each other, but deep inside..
u hate each other..
well.. that's the way women do..
huuummm..
honestly...
i'm happy with my life now..
me n my husband are so deep in luv..
soooo in luv..
i miss him every single minutes..
n my life is alil bit in peace.. even thouh there still lotsa things need to be think of..
takpelaa..
yg penting..
i'm happy..
pa... luv u so much..
n damn.. i've got paper tomorrow n the next day..
i'll be dead meat.. huhuuuu..
wish me luck!