Thursday, February 26, 2009

15 weeks pregger

next week i'll be 4 months pregger..
perut dah agak besar.
but still, if am wearing a lose fit shirt, nobody know am pregnant.
coz am so surprisingly a bit skinny.
aku pun tak bajet aku leh kurus lagi.
ingatkan second baby ni aku akan menembam kan diri.
tapi tidak same sekali.
coz, aku sangat tak lalu makan, n takleh nak makan banyak.
kalo makan nasi sepinggan penuh, rase macam nak pecah perut ni.
slalu tak banyak makan.
biase bile pregnant, org cakap we're eating for two.
but i think for me, am not eating for two, am eating for the baby only.
sebab sikit gile aku makan, huhu..

about the baby..
here is the baby, 15weeks year old..



sebesar size buah apple n seberat 2oz=600gm
kecik jek kan.
humm, tak sabar nak tungu die kuar.
hehe..
am already pick the name for the baby.
if it's a boy..
his name will be ASHRAF FAROUK
if a girl..
her name is gonna be ANNA SUFIYA
hehe, nama glamer abis..
i pick the name for a reason..
coz nanti bleh kasik nick name ANNA SUE..
i know it's sounds gediks, tapi tak kesahlaa..
aku nak gak letak name tuh..
actually banyak gile name yg aku list down kat internet..
speshly for the girl..
banyak name best2..
whatever it is..
it' gonna be Anna Sufiya..hahahahaa

klaa, enuf bout the name..
sambung keje plak..
ngantuk lor..
huuu~

Friday, February 20, 2009

bod-lucious...

am always dream to have such a great perfect body and flawless skin.
well, everyone does meh.
thats why, am a huge fan of ANTM.
luv tyra lots and all the gorgeous chics.
wish i have their looks. haiz~
but my ultimate beautiful body i dream of is the bod of Anna Faris in The Bunny House.
the perfectly engineered boobs n butt..
n the finely toned biceps n legs..
fuuuh.. i wish i had the bod.
one day, i know, sooner or later..
when things gonna fall into the places..
everything sail smoothly..
then am gonna start to engineered my body like the anna faris do.
tho it ain't perfect like her.
at least, agak2 macam die pun dah more than enough.
yeah, am promise myself.
the day will come.
hehe..

Thursday, February 19, 2009

getting wiser or just getting older..?

the same topic copied from carry bradshaw.
well, do u ever ask urself something like that?
are u getting wiser when u're getting older?
or u jez getting older without being wiser?
hummm, if u ask me a few months ago.
i think i jez get older.. not getting wiser at all..
but when there was sumthing happened, i found my turning point.
where i back to pangkal jalan n never look back again.
that's when i think am alot wiser now than a few months back.
but still, i cudn't get it
why all this while i never learned my past mistakes?
why am still act childish and being such a fool (in other word, being stupid..)?
why am doing all those stuffs?

looking back, sumtimes i felt so jijik with myself.
but i know, menyesal ke tidak, i cudn't turn back and change history.
so many regrets in my life, but of coz, there're lotsa of lessons to learn to..
well, part of it is trying how to be optimist n positive..
honestly, its kinda hard coz ppl i meet daily are far from being optimist.
haizz~ sangat susah k.
all of em are so pesissmist, kekadang aku yang nak jadik positive pun terkena ion negative skali.
so, i jez teach myself to put away all the negativity,
n absorb all the positive vibe.
oklaa, walaupun positiveness is still a bit slow.
at least am making progress k.
hum, am so proud of myself. haha.

alrite miss positive, i really wanna be ur bff.
so, lets done our zohor now, hehe. (padahal dah 2.30pm, baru nak zohor..humm~)
whateverlaa, gambate to myself..!
i luv u babes!!
mmwahxxx!

hatred inside my head!

who are u to keep asking me to do things for u, hah?
tak bleh ke kalo ko jumpe aku, ko tak suh aku buat tuh buat ni?
ko ingat aku ape?
kuli batak ko?
ko ingat aku takde keje lain ke selain buat keje kat ko?
gaji aku yg berkurun tuh pun ko tak bayar lagi, pastuh nak suh aku buat keje for free?
hoh, banyak cantek muke ko?
aku tengok muke ko pun aku dah benci gile.
dulu sedap laa ko suh aku buat tuh buat ni, ko kan tuan mude.
sedap2 jek mengarah orang.
sakarang aku dah blah pun nak nak ngarah2 org lagi.
haram laa aku nak tolong ko.

argghhh!

huumm... deep breath...

Monday, February 16, 2009

love for him..

my weekn was great.
i wish another one more day break.
hehe.
my big gratitude to Madam Rose n family, and also to Madam Siti n family.
Last weekn, macam family day weekn, keje aku merempat rumah orang jek.
even sleep over kat rumah orang.
best laa, dapat special treatment.
tapi agak segan jugak sbenarnye. tapi takpelaa..
huhu..

finally, dapat befday gift from hunky.
di mana aku sdiri pilih ape aku nak.
tho aku sbenarnye prefer die belikan hadiah untuk aku, instead of aku pick hadiah pe.
sebab aku akan rase bersalah gile kalo spend duit die bebanyak.
huhu~ aku kan isteri mithali. uhuk!
now i miss hunky alot.. humm..

i've been reading metros' this morning.
bout sum wife willing to do ridiculous thing to make sure her husband not cheating n stay loyal to her.
sumthing like putting their own najis kat dalam husband nyer food..
pakai tangkal tuh, pakai susuk ni.
sumthing really khurafat.
well, who am i laa nak cakap bende2 agama ni.
but, are u willing to do such things jez to make sure your dear husband stay faithful to u?
kalau aku, i dun think aku akan buat sumthing yang macam kite ni dah takde agame.
of coz aku akan cari something from Islamic side.
macam certain doa untuk kebahagiaan rumahtangga.
n i found lotsa doa are coming from Al-Quran.
Some wise people suggest read surah Toha.
Dr. Fadhilah Kamsah suggest recite doa from Surah Yusuf: Ayat 4.
and for me.
i keep berdoa using the one from my mom gave.
aku tak tau laa mane die amik.
it is jez simple doa, and easy to remember.
if u can't memorize in Arabic, baca jelaa ikut bahase yang kite paham.
the meaning of the doa is sound more like this;

"Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, Hubungkanlah kasih sayang aku dan suamiku sepertimana hubungan Adam dan Hawa"s

macam simple jek.
but, lame2 you can feel the difference.
specially for someone who has been married for 5 years like me.
hahaha...
di mana kasih sayang masih lagi wujud.
tetapi kesungguhan, keriangan dan sewaktu dengannye, tidak lagi seperti dua tahun pertama kita mendirikan rumahtangga.
coz everything are so common and life's ruled by routine.
so, saye mencadangkan ibu2 mengamal sebarang doa untuk mengekalkan kebahgiaan rumah tangga ibu2 sekalian.
janganlaa pula ibu2 membomohkan suami ibu.
kerana, apakah perasaan ibu jika ibu dibomoh oleh suami?
huhu~

btw, expecting another family member, brings more sparks in our life.
where i saw lotsa changes from our first son and hunky.
am soo happy and feel really bless.
thank you..

May Allah keep raining us with blessig and love from Him. amiin..~

Friday, February 13, 2009

menguap jer keje..

pepagi gi keje mesti rase letih n mengantuk.
cam mane ar nak ilangkan rase letih pepagi.
mesti sebab malam tak betul2 tido erk.
semalam dah tido awal.
hunky balik kul 10, lepak ngan die, dah langsung takleh nak tido.
alih2 kul 1 baru tido.
dah tido lambat.
tido plak tak lena.
subuh malas bangun awal.
padahal alarm asyik snooze since 5.50am.
bukannye tak sedar, sedar jek dok tekan alarm kasik snooze sampai kul 7.
haizz.. mane tak beku otak, kul 7 baru bangun subuh.
memang dari kecik lagi aku memang liat gile nak bangun pagi.
tapikan, aku suke ar plak tgk orang yang suke bangun pagi.
speshly on weekn.
sbenarnye bangun pagi on weekn sangat best.
leh gi kuar breakfast.
lepak makan2 sambil bace paper.
tapi masalah nyer, kalo dah weekn, keje nyer membute je laa..
arghh, sangat susah nak break bad habit nih.
aku nak bangun pagi!
huuu~

Thursday, February 12, 2009

bongeklaa!!!!

i start my day with such a fine feeling.
having a great dinner n a great sex last nite, really stimulating..hehe
but..
when the noon come..
and lotsa matters came and demand my attention.
i start to feel suck!
arggghhh!

seriously tak suke bile deal ngan orang yg bongek.
para pekerja yang jage lab, tapi tak penah ade kat lab.
manager insurans yg bongek, pikir psal die nyer duit jek.
hoh! tak suke gile.

sabarjelaa..

sib baik laa my current boss ni macam baik gak ar.
takdelaa nak tokok tambah aku nyer fenin ni.
ntah2 die yg pening nak layan aku yg macam2 hal ni.
hehe.

apepun babe,
have a great thursday.

i luv hunky.
i luv aiman.
i luv me.
i luv everyone.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

yawn!!

i want to whining and complaining.
i don't care!
i have such a very bad morning (biaselaa after 3 days break)..
hoh!

i hate my colleague, this one particular guy in my office.
jez a technician.
and act like typical kelantanese guy.
pepagi masuk office, keje die mengeluh dan komplen psal kejer.
kutuk2 bos. takde keje lain.
sampai cair taik telinge aku.
kalo ko buat je keje2 diam2 tak bleh ke.
kalo dah tak suke sgt kat bos, pegilaa cari keje lain.
takyah nak bising.
kalo tanak, buat jelaa keje.
kate kite ni kuli, buat laa care jadi kuli.
ini nak dengki ngan bos.
kalo camtuh, jadilaa bos sdiri.
takyahlaa nak memekak.
haish! bingit telinge aku tau.

pastuh kete aku lak satu hal.
hunky tukar seat bucket.
aku rase nak nangis jek bawak kete tadi.
kene letak tige bijik bantal, baru laa kaki aku leh tekan cluc.
tension gile.
aku dah cakap dah, aku takleh nak bawak kete kalo pakai seat tuh.
tiga bijik bantal ok.
tuh pun takleh nak tekan cluc sampai abis.
arghhhh~ stress gile.
sampai bile aku nak bawak kete camtuh.
huwaaa~

so now..
am looking for sumthing nak ilangkan stress n calm me down.
takdelaa aku kene deal masalah besar pun.
pun it's really spoil my morning k.
n aku konpem, one whole day aku akan muncung n marah2.
haiz...

Thursday, February 05, 2009

looking for material..

last weekend, for the first time am stepping in Gucci's, Fendi's and Dior's at klcc.
tak kesahlah walaupun agak jakun, layan jelaa..
bukan slalu pun layan nafsu materialistik aku nih,*cess menipu gile*
tapikan, bile masuk usha2 barang dalam butik tuh, aku rase macam tak best ar..
beside the uncomfortable feeling that 'aku memang takde duit nak beli barang2 tuh sume'..
aku rase kan, one day aku ade banyak pitis, aku tak rase aku akan spend kat butik2 cam tuh.
yelaa, aku ni kan org kampung.
macam mak mertue aku cakaplaa.
ko beli Dior 10, 20 ribu, pastuh ko bawak balik kampung,
mesti orang kampung tengok dan melihat dengan penuh rase kagum,
lalu berkate..
"aloh mek, comey nyor beg mek nih.. beli mano weh? beli ratau panje ke?"
translation
"hey girl, your bag is so hot. where did you buy it? is it at rantau panjang?"
oklaa, hanya gadis2 yang berasal dari kelantan dan yang pernah tinggal kat kelantan jek will get the joke.
soweylaa, joke aku racist kelantan sket.
ok, back to the topic.
nak ke ko beli barang yang harga setahun ko nyer gaji,
balik kampung makcik ko cakap bag tuh ko beli kat pasar borong.
mesti bernanah telinge ko die cakap camtuh kan.
humm, bukan nyer aku tak brand concious ke pe.
i jez seem don't like what i saw.
pegi ngan kakak-kakak ipar ku yang smemangnye very high taste,
walaupun sbenarnye takdelaa berkemampuan nak membeli barang2 camtuh,
but they seem like it so much.
humm..
aku pun agak brand concious, takdela sampai level cam tuh.
kalo aku ade duit pun, aku tak pegi klcc shopping kat sane.
alang2 dah duit belambak, aku lagi prefer pegi bandung or bangkok, purchase sumthing yg smemang nye takde kat mesia.
barang kat sane murah, besides, walaupun murah, tuh bukan barang imitation tau.
sume ori, tapi reject.
cam ko pegi reject shop untuk prada, gucci, dior n yadayadayada..
alaaa, kalo duit bersepah-sepah sangat, why don't pegi uk ke, spain ke, italy ke beli terus kat sane.
ape susah.
tapi kan, masalah nye kite ni skarang bukan banyak duit sangat pun.
nak beli vinnci nyer stilettos pun aku terpakse pikir 5,6 kali.
ape tah lagi nak beli ck nye kasut.
unless, dapat shopping fendi kat petaling street,
memang laa aku tak pikir panjang. heheh.
but for me now, aku suke cari barang yang ekslusif.
exclusive, bukan maksud aku barang mahal bergaya.
exclusive for me is sumthing yang jarang orang pakai n jumpe.
like the bag kelabu yg aku pakai sekarang.
genuine leather, from vietnam.
no brand.
tapi jahitan die cantik gile, n kemas.
aku jumpe satu kedai kecik gile, n sangat tersorok sumwer dekat ampang.
n kedai tuh cam pelik, ade gak jual telekung smayang, so takyah laa risau pasal leather tuh.
yang pasti nyer, aku tak penah jumpe lagi other ppl wearing the same handbag like me.
yeay...
so, takdelaa ko lepak klcc, every single person ko jumpe pakai handbag same cam ko.
gile tak best.
speshly time raye, chances nak jumpe org pakai handbag n kasut yg same adalah sgt tinggi.
aku penah skali, ari tuh saje laa beli bag mng.
first time aku purchase mng, walaupun aku bukannye suke sgt pun.
bag tuh nak wat raye.
n guess what, mase raye aku jumpe 2,3 org wearing the same handbag cam aku.
hoh, gile tak best.
so, baik aku beli jek sumthing yang aku suke, tak kesahlaa kalo takde brand pon.
janji aku chenta sama itu bag, cukuplaa.
n s long s makcik kat kg aku pun takdelaa ingat aku beli kat pasar malam wakaf che yeh, pun dah kire ok ar tuh.

oklaa makcik, enough laa psal bag.
dah banyak dah bag kat umah tuh.
setahun skali beli bag pun dah kire cukup bagi aku.
brand ke tak branded ke, kalo ade bajet lebih bleh ar..
kalo tak.. humm..
pepaham jelaa..

oleh yang demikian, saye berseru kepade gadis2 dan ibu2 di sane, marilah kite berjimat cermat, agar pada suatu hari kita boleh bershopping sakan tanpa lupe diri. Dan bahawasa nye kite, terpakse menyimpan sedikit duit gaji untuk beberape bulan semate-mate mendapatkan sebiji bag tangan yang cantek bergaye.
sekian, harap maklum.